Creative Meanderings

I have been a slacker. I haven’t posted in what…a month? Things have been crazy but it’s really no excuse is it. My weight Is the same but it needs to be lower. The good news? I was told by a seamstress that Im not allowed to lose anymore weight. Okay, let me start at the beginning.

So I was originally fitted for a size 24 dress but we ordered it a size small because I wanted to lose weight. Originally I wanted to do 2 sizes smaller because I thought I could lose it but the seamstress argued that I probably wouldn’t lose the weight. This is what motivated me to begin with. It worked too because when I went in 3 days ago she said we really should have ordered it a size smaller! That’s 2 sizes smaller than from that day in April!

We ended up having to do a lot of alterations on the dress. We knew we would already because my top is almost 2 sizes smaller than my bottom. I wasn’t lying when I said I had a big ass! In fact, after she got most of it done but wanted to try it on me we found it bunched up a lot around the top of my butt. She quickly fixed this, however, with two well places darts! After which she complimented me on having a butt that wasn’t flat. Weird.

Anyway, the up shot of all of this is that I am getting a custom made dress that (I’d I don’t lose too much in my top half) is going to look fantastic….. For a day. Kind of sad that I’ve spent more than $400 on this endeavor and plan to not wear it again, and it’s not even my wedding!

So I’ve still only lost 30 lbs but managed to lose more inches. Geeze, guess I have hard fat after all!

I am pretty disappointed with myself this week. I didn’t work out at all. I ate… decent, but I had a few moments of weakness. Such moments are terrible and inexcusable, however. It’s unacceptable and I need to break it. This next week I have closing shifts so I am going to be extra motivated and work out every day before work. And even on days when I feel like maybe I don’t want to do it, I’ll go and sit in the sauna, at the very least, to kind of give myself some umpfh. So all in all I ended up gaining a lb and an inch on my body. So not cool.

I think what makes it worse is that I am sorta re-united with a friend from high school. I suppose “friend” is a bit of a stretch as we were always acquaintances and I am pretty sure I spoke more with his father (art teacher for a semester) than I did with him. Still, I can’t articulate how excited I was to see him after all this time, living in the same town as me. Naturally I clutched to that, as I am low on friends and am happy to make new ones. I am a very different person than what I was then and so I want to try to form a friendship with him. What makes it even better? I am proud of this guy! He has lost weight since then and looks phenomenal. I mean, looks good… dare I say it? Hot even? Maybe. Just maybe. Anyway, it makes me feel kinda crappy because I am quite the opposite. I’ve definitely gained weight since high school and though I feel my general appearance isn’t terrible, and I am finally rid of that ill gotten black dyed hair, I still am not all I could be.

Does anyone else ever feel this way? I hate seeing people from the past because I know they are thinking, “Oh man, what happened to her?!” And of course he also met me at my job, which isn’t any better because he has a great job and it just makes me feel crappy. I went to college for this? Really? It’s sad that it is going to require me getting a masters to get a job that I really desire and that will make me feel fulfilled and not embarrassed. Oh well. Appearances don’t matter, right? Right! So just keep working to get better - health is what matters, damn it.

Oh and in other news, I think I may have figured out my pants dilemma. I am a small torso’d gal. I have the long legs with the short body. It’s obnoxious. So I get pants and they fit my waist but then they’re loose on the hip. Oh yeah, I’m also a high waisted gal. So it ends up being silly! I have a high waist so the pants sit up really high on me, but because my waist is smaller than my hips the pants are baggy on my waist and start to fall. If I pull the pants down to where they fit well - lower on the waist, closer to the hips, the crotch is at my knees. I need to find low waist pants. Do they make these for us chubs? I somehow don’t think so.

This week: 240 lbs
Last week: 239 lbs
Starting Weight: 270 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 30 lbs
(I can’t believe I gained a lb ;.;)

Neck: 15 in
Upper Arms: 14 in
Chest: 46 in
Waist: 43 in
Hips: 49.5 in
Thighs: 28 in
Calves: 17 in

I really should have posted this yesterday. What a way to begin a path of diligence when I pose this late. Figures. Anyway, I don’t have a whole lot to say, as most of it was said yesterday, but I will post a few things.

Current Weight: 239 lbs
Starting Weight: 270 lbs
Weight Lost: 31 lbs
Left to Lose: 89 lbs

Measurements:

Neck: 15 in
Arms: 14.5 in
Chest: 47 in
Waist: 42 in
Hips: 50.5 in
Thighs: 27.5 in
Calves: 17 in

Now the cool thing about this is that I have hardly worked out during the last time I took measurements about a month ago and now and I have still managed to take .5 in off nearly each body part! Not bad! As soon as the Diet Bug page is up and running again I will post my starting measurements and total up how many inches lost so far. The last time i did this (about a month ago) it was pretty astonishing. I mean, I had hoped to lose more, but when you think about it, it’s still an accomplishment. When I think about how much weight I haven’t lost, I try to think about what I have done, because really, that’s what matters, right?

You’d think that after running around like a mad woman, cleaning two days straight, hauling heavy boxes, working out out two days (albeit half-assedly) and standing up all day at work every single day that I’d have lost more weight. Sadly, this is not the case. No, today I weighed in at the still hefty 139.6. Still that’s not a terrible 1.4 lbs less. It was also only two days of working out and like I said, those working out days were pathetic. It’s amazing. If you stop working out for a month and a half it is a bitch and a half to get back into it. A BITCH. So I know now that I need to ease my way back into it.

Like I said before, I’ve started back up on Diet Bug, although I only started today. I have had my breakfast, snack, lunch and snack and have already eaten over 1000 calories. Ugh. I am supposed to eat about 1600 calories and I suppose I’m not doing too bad but really, before I was actually eating about 1300 calories. I kind of want to stick to that We’ll see. … We’ll see. *sighs*

I’m just trying to stay positive. Hopefully this time next week I’ll have more to show for this whole ordeal. The good news is that I have dropped a size. I went and purched two new pair of work pants and they are a 22 instead of 24. I’m pretty f’n stoked because not only are they the same brand so I know it isn’t just a freaky random pant size fluke, but they fit well. Not tight. Just right. Which is great because not long ago 24 were starting to get snug and 22 were super tough to get into, if at all.

SO I’M HAPPY!

I’ll be posting measurements tomorrow as well because that’s how I had originally started it with Diet Bug. I want to try some consistency. It’s a novel idea and might make me stick to this.

Starting Weight: 270 lbs
Current Weight: 239.6 lbs
Left to Lose: 89.6 lbs

Oh and just for kicks, check this out! On Diet Bug they have a link to a Virtual Model thing. it’s pretty nifty. You put in your weight and personalize the model to look as much like you as you can manage. Mine doesn’t really look like me, but it’s close enough. The whole point of it appears to be a shopping motive. You can pick out clothes to put on your model and see how they would look on you, and of course they make sure you see what brand they all are. The part that interested me most was that you can click on “weight loss” and you can put in your current weight and your target weight and see about how different you would look! Let’s see how I “look” now compared to how I will look when I reach my 150 lb goal!

I personally think it’s rather flattering. They’re nice and make there less… sag. If you get my meaning. And for giggles, me at my original starting weight, to my target weight:

Tonight my boyfriend, John, made smoothies. He says he likes Jamba Juice but can always make a better one. So he does. He’s quite good at it. The awesome thing is that he makes them all out of fruit, juice and lime sherbet, which is not so bad.

The smoothie created by John is most like Jamba Juice’s “Strawberry Surf Rider”. They have almost the same ingredients, but his is healthier! The Strawberry Surf Rider has 320 calories for each 16 oz serving. After some rough calculation, John’s much better version has about 190 calories for about 16 oz. I didn’t do an exact measurement for several reasons. One, John’s a prick and doesn’t measure his stuff. Jerk. I tried to eyeball it as he did it but I know it wasn’t perfect. I still managed to get a decent approximation and I think it’s pretty accurate.

So let’s get to the meat of this post; John’s Strawberry, Peach, Lemonade Smoothie!

Ingredients:
1 Cup Crystal Light Lemonade
7 oz canned peaches (frozen works just as well, and are likely less calories)
1- 1 1/2 cup frozen strawberries
1 cup lime sherbet

So just cram all this in your choice blender and blend to your smoothie preference. Smooth is good. It is a smoothie after all. Yeah, anyway, just blend that sucka and pour into a cup. I recommend inserting a flexi-straw as well. It adds atmosphere. Check out the deliciousness below:

Well “Hello World” indeed. The poor meanderings have been up and down, up and down, due to my hosting change. I really hope it’s not going to cause too many problems here now. Hopefully my hosting will be a bit more reliable. Unfortunately, being the ‘tard that I am, I managed to not successfully back up my previous posts. I suppose this is just as well as I really did want to start fresh anyway.

So those of you new to this place, what is “Creative Meanderings” anyway? Originally I created the blog to post recipes, crafts, ideas, funny things, photos, etc. I’ve decided that I am going to be more aggressive with my weight loss endeavor and really use this as a forum to hold myself accountable with my weight loss. Unfortunately I couldn’t think of a good name for the blog that would include something about losing weight. I thought about stealing Jennette Fulda’s blog name, Half of Me.  Hopefully this title will be indicative of my own transformation but it isn’t exactly nice to steal, even if it would be entirely because I admire her so much.

That being said I decided to stick with Creative Meanderings. Mostly because this is me we are talking about here. I can’t help but post random things and I hope if you read you’ll be entertained by anything posted. I have every intention of posting awesome recipes found here and there, along with pictures! So look forward to that. Also expect see a weekly weigh-in that I will hopefully not shame myself with. I (last I checked) am at 241, down from 270 on April 4th, and hope to follow this trend of weight loss. My  next post will be more exact with measurements and a little story.

See you then!